Life's been a little on edge lately, as it always is, full of occurrances and events. Asthma prevents me from enjoying Physical-heavy activities and the recent turn of events at school has my mind on things other than artwork. Then again, there are a lot of things on my mind that keep me from drawing. The end of the current college semester is coming up, and I really should focus on passing the only class I have, as my entire collegiate future possibly depends on the success or failure of my Japanese class. Home life's been a real pain as well. The changes in my schedule now result in my spending every other day at home with the one family member I tryuly can't stand being near. My grandmother makes my life so difficult, that I've found that when I'm far away from her, my health improves and my mood lightens considerably. Unfortunately, I have no means of moving out or even getting out of the house without being assaulted with a veritable hailstorm of endless questions. Sadly, my desire to be a good person prevents me from truly telling her what I've thought about her for the last 6 or 7 years of my life. Old friends seem to be fading away, with incredibly long intervals in between meetings, and certain people in my life can drop off the face of the earth and die for all I care. The kind of treatment they've given me is worth being erased from my memory and my world, as far as I care. Life seems to move faster, the more the years pass by. To be more specific, I've noticed that my life may be unspent, and therefore I feel like I'm wasting the time I have to live experiences and gain memories. Well anyway, perhaps once school ends for a few week, life will calm down somewhat...


One can only hope..